Second Wind

Runners talk about gaining a second wind somewhere during their run.  I'll probably never experience this. I have no desire to run. A heel spur and Achilles tendonitis give me all the excuses I need if I ever decide to change my mind.

I don't know how many times I've edited my spiritual memoir. It doesn't matter really. I never count things that really matter but pursue, persist, and persevere until I accomplish what needs to be done to achieve excellence, to heal, to grow. It's been a slow process. Being a burgeoning writer, I'm pretty sure it's always going to be a slow process. Creative juices have their own ebb and flow to their tide. Each writer observes and walks his or her own beach to learn and breathe its salty air.

Something happened last week that surprised me. I printed out a copy of my manuscript to send to a beta reader. As it sat on my desk to be mailed, I started to page through it to see how the latest version looked on the page. Before I knew it, I was in another line edit.  I'd already sent the MS to my developmental editor. I thought I was done for the moment until I got her feedback. Wrong.

Clarity blew in like a storm out of nowhere. I read through page after page in high adrenaline mode, marking corrections, finding new ways to clean up sentences, avoiding duplicate descriptions as if my life depended on it. If I knew what an upper felt like, I might have been experiencing something like its effects.

Maybe the work was so clean finally, the edits came more easily. Maybe this is what it feels like to be close to a finish line in a race. Who knows? The thrill of this line edit is a new exhilaration for me on my writer's beach and I'm staying with it '

til the sun sets.

Blog Guru Wanted.

"Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice."   

-Steve Jobs-

My inner voice is telling me I need a wise and wonderful helper to make my blog a place of beauty that attracts me to it like a flower draws a bee. A soulful resting place beneath a tree whose roots drink deeply from the river by its side. Where birds chirp in the morning. Where fear has no friends. A verdant place to pick a blade of grass, place it between your thumbs, and blow a fresh sound into space. 

I have two blogs I'd like to meld into one. I want to easily post photos and text. I believe the universe responds to our requests, so I'm putting this one out there. If you can help or know someone who can, please contact me. Let's make a beautiful space together and do some good and Godly work.

chris.manion@gmail.com

I'm not afraid to write my way out of the dark.

It's true. It was all dark and roots poked at me everywhere and I couldn't move, at least I didn't think I could, and then one day something started pushing out of me. It was a strange feeling but it had a purpose and an energy that sought release, sought the light, and here I am to tell of it in glorious sunshine reaching taller, taller, every day as though I were still a child growing in bed at night.

I'm not afraid of the dark. I was born in it. So is my writing. It seeks the light. All souls do. 

Let your writing out and I'll do the same for mine. It knows how to break through the surface. Trust it as it works its way upward until it shows its first leaves.  These leaf pages will fall away eventually like childhood beliefs. Others will grow, stronger, better, fuller. 

I commit to living with more joy, more vulnerability, more courage to Be My Self, aware of the darkness and little deaths I see each day in the world, in my community, in my self.  Christ's light within me, God's light that cannot hold itself back - Turn your back, Moses, while I pass by.  I know the intensity of my Light and Love. I don't want to hurt you - is my light. It would not shine so brightly if the darkness were not so prevalent. Don't we all need another person to show us courage, love, boldness, beauty, compassion, forgiveness? We feel it. We see it - shine your light - and like a doctor's tap on our knee, our heart moves outward reflexively. I will be that one person for someone. I will be that one today

                                                        and the next

                                                                                and the next.

                                                  

Writers are growing trees. Hug a writer today. 

Unfamiliar Nervousness Hangs Out to Dry

When she was in her early twenties, my daughter asked me once how do you know whether to allow yourself to be vulnerable to another person.  What hung in the air was a plea for protection from the risk of being hurt.  It's the tipping point in a relationship.  In order to love fully, you must cross that line and not look back.  The risk of being hurt hangs at the precipice as we decide whether to step out into faith toward another or not.  Some people never make it across.

In the parable of the sower (Mathew 13: 18-23), Jesus instructs how the seed sown among thorns is the one who hears the word, but then worldly anxiety...chokes the word and it bears no fruit.  For several decades, I encouraged beautiful women on my sales team to let go of anxiety about the outcome of their work, and simply apply themselves to the work, doing the best they could at serving others.  Releasing concern about the outcome allowed a natural flow of their abilities to occur and positive results followed.

In my new writing career path, I am experiencing the same sort of anxiety about which I counseled many just a few years ago.  It is an unfamiliar nervousness and hesitation.  I'm accustomed to being assertive and bold in my pursuit of my goals.  The core toggle point is the feeling of vulnerability about which my daughter queried me.  A memoir by its very nature is deeply personal.  As I get closer to releasing it, this very private side of my faith life is about to walk naked among my readers.  I am self-conscious and doubtful of acceptance.  Like the Emperor who had no clothes, an authentic memoirist has none either. The difference is he or she knows it.

If I take the same counsel I used to give, I will shake out my feelings of inadequacy like a sheet fresh from the wash and hang it in the wind to dry and billow freely. Without doing anything at all, a sheet hanging on a line in the wind restores peace to agitated souls, tired and weary, who gaze upon it. My goal of serving others by sharing what our Good Lord has done in, with and through me will be accomplished by simply hanging myself out to dry in Spirit wind, in my book's pages, after being washed in the blood of Christ, and rinsed in His Downey soft gift of peace.

I'm all wet, Lord. You have drenched me through the night. Hang me up. I'm ready for a new day of line drying, to smell fresh from the breeze of your Spirit, so that others may fall asleep on my sheets in your sweet, fragrant peace.

"Live in a manner worthy of the call you have received, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another through love..." St. Paul to the ephesians 4:1-2

Forming Habits Myth #4: Rewards Alone will Help You Stick to a Habit

I don't think I focus on rewards enough.  Or I reward myself too early.  I tried M&M's once.  My rule was to take one with a particular action as I sat at my desk.  Well, let's just say that didn't work... 

Here's the scoop from Thorin Klosowski's blog on this topic.  

If you look at just about any advice for forming a habit (or breaking one), you’ll see suggestions that you should reward yourself as you go so you stick to it. This is a great idea, but it’s not the whole story.

In his book, The Power of Habit, Charles Duhigg sums up the problem with relying just on rewards:

Countless studies have shown that a cue and a reward, on their own, aren’t enough for a new habit to last. Only when your brain starts expecting the reward—craving the endorphins or sense of accomplishment-—will it become automatic to lace up your jogging shoes each morning. The cue, in addition to triggering a routine, must also trigger a craving for the reward to come.

Duhigg’s saying that you can’t rely on rewards to get that habit to stick. It’s a whole system, which he calls the habit loop. It looks like this:

So, if you want to get rid of a bad habit, you need to identify the cue and come up with an alternative reward. For example, let’s say you want to stop eating a cookie everyday at lunch. First, you need to identify the cue. Is it hunger? Boredom? Low blood sugar? Take some time to think about what launches that initial craving.

To figure out what the craving is, Duhigg suggests you start experimenting with rewards. This can help you figure out how that craving works and replace it with something else. So, when you’re craving that cookie, adjust your reward. Instead of getting a cookie, go outside and take a break. Or buy an apple. Maybe try getting a coffee instead. When you choose to do something that isn’t eating a cookie, you’ll eventually figure out what you’re craving so you can replace the cookie with something useful. For example, maybe that cookie was just a convenient excuse to get up from your desk and wander around for a bit.

Once you isolate that craving and reward, you can even start working out the habitual cues so you can really solidify the habit. Experiments suggest these cues fall into five categories: location, time, emotional state, other people, and immediately preceding action. When you’re trying to figure out what the cue is, make a note of these five things when you’re craving that cookie. Take a few days to collect all this data. Once you do, you’ll probably know exactly what’s triggering that cookie craving. Now, with all that data, you can start replacing that bad habit with something good.

The point is that cues are just as important as reward, so don’t concentrate solely on the reward. Find that cue and find a way to work with it as well. The same goes for forming good habits too. Want to exercise more? Duhigg suggests choosing a cue like going to exercise in the morning, then rewarding yourself with a smoothie afterward. The cue can even be as simple as leaving your running shoes by the door if you’re trying to get into running.

  All four myths are found at Thorin's blog here.

Do you have a reward that works for you?  Please share, fellow writers and friends!

Habit Myth #3: All Strategies Work for Everyone

I learned in my direct sales career that everybody didn't like the same rewards or recognition that I liked.  The same holds true for forming habits. The same for motivation. I'm a questioner (see below).  What attitude do you hold when it comes to motivation?

We continue with Thorin Klosowski's thoughts on the myth that strategies and motivations to form a habit are one size fits all.  

Everyone has their own “perfect” method that helped them form their habit. Maybe they created a routine in a spreadsheet. Perhaps they followed the advice of countless famous people. But like most things in life, there’s no magic tip that works for everyone.

If you look through the archives at Lifehacker, you’ll find countless tips for helping form a habit, complete with examples and anecdotal evidence about how well these techniques work. But strategies aren’t universal. What works for you might not work for me. For one, our lifestyles are all a little different, so why I have (or want) a habit is completely different from yours. Motivation is different too. In her book Better Than Before: Mastering the Habits of Our Everyday Lives, author Gretchen Rubin suggests most of us fall into one of four different general categories with regards to motivation:

• Upholders respond readily to both outer expectations and inner expectations.
• Questioners question all expectations, and will meet an expectation only if they believe it’s justified.
• Obligers respond readily to outer expectations but struggle to meet inner expectations.
• Rebels resist all expectations, outer and inner alike.

Knowing which group you fall into can help you work through your own tendencies to find the best way to tackle a habit. If you’re not sure which you fall into, Rubin has a quiz that can help point you in the right direction. Once you complete the quiz, she deals out a little advice for your motivation type. For example, after taking the quiz, I was labeled a “questioner,” which doles out this advice:

Once Questioners believe that a particular habit is worthwhile, they’ll stick to it—but only if they’re satisfied about the habit’s soundness and usefulness. They resist anything arbitrary or ineffective; they accept direction only from people they respect.

That doesn’t sound super helpful on the surface, but it’s helpful when thinking about habit formation. If I’m going to take something on, I need to think it’s valid and useful, so you probably won’t see me going on regular juice fasts anytime soon. I also don’t tend to need much in the way of external accountability. If I want to go on bike rides four days a week, I just go. I don’t need a riding buddy to go with. However, if I was an “obliger,” external accountability, like a workout buddy, would probably be really useful in forming that habit.

Regardless of how you feel about Rubin’s particular metric, the takeaway is really the same. We’re all a little different and what motivates us to start new habits and ditch old ones matters when you’re trying to figure out an approach that works for you.

Want to read more now?  All four myths are found at Thorin's blog here.

Myth: You Can’t Miss a Day When Forming (or Breaking) a Habit

It's important not to beat yourself up when you miss a routine.  With all that most of us have on our plates, it's nearly impossible to create a habit that you adhere to strictly. I figured out - once I became a mom - that getting it done whenever I could and doing the best I could on any given day worked pretty well. I need to remind myself of that occasionally.  It is never an excuse to stop creating the habit worth doing.

Here's what Thorin Klosowskii posted on this myth.

The “Don’t Break the Chain” productivity method (widely attributed to Jerry Seinfeld) is wildly popular and the concept is pretty simple: spend some amount of time every day doing an activity, then cross off the day on the calendar when you do it. If you don’t do that task, you miss crossing out your calendar and the chain is broken. Of course, Seinfeld isn’t the only person to come up with this concept. It’s a persistent myth that in order to form a habit, you need to do it every day (or at least on a schedule) without ever missing a day.

The good news comes from the same study, published in European Journal of Social Psychology, that debunked the 21 days myth. It turns out that missing a day occasionally didn’t affect the habit formation process. Repetition of behavior

is important, but you don’t need to beat yourself up just for missing a day occasionally. That doesn’t mean this method isn’t useful, though. Tracking progress is good, just don’t let missing a day destroy your self-esteem.

Want to read more now?  All four myths are found at Thorin's blog here.