The Cracked Clay Pot

I am the vine, you are the branches.
I am the potter, you are the clay.

God has many ways of teaching us how dependent we are, or should be, on Him. Some are verbal and written in Scripture. Others are lessons from creation and life.

I learned one such lesson from a wonderful story called The Cracked Pot. It helped me become less critical of myself. It taught me that God has beautiful ways of using me, even if I don't have the eyes or wisdom to see them.

The Cracked Pot

A water bearer in China had two large pots, each hung on the ends of a pole which he carried across his neck.  One of the pots had a crack in it, while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water.

At the end of the long walk from the stream to the house, the cracked pot arrived only half full.  For a full two years, this went on daily, with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots full of water to his house.

Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments, perfect for which it was made.  But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do.

After 2 years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure, it spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream.  "I am ashamed of myself, because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your house."

The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of the path, but not on the other pot's side?

That's because I have always known about your flaw, and I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day, when we walk back, you have watered them.   For two years, I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate the table.  Without you being just the way you are, there would not be this beauty to grace the house"

MORAL:  Each of us has our own unique flaws.  We're all cracked pots.  But it's the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and rewarding.  You've just got to take each person for what they are and look for the good in them.  There is a lot of good out there.  There is a lot of good in you! 

Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be bent out of shape.

It's the cracked pots that keep life interesting ....

Why I Write

I don't want to die yet, so I keep breathing however unconsciously.  I want to learn, process, integrate, then teach what I know.  I write, therefore, to understand first, as part of passing it on.  Writing is like chewing my food before swallowing.

"Don't die with the music unplayed inside you."  I wonder always about the book my mother never wrote. I have copies of her correspondence.  It has to suffice.  Her mind was as finely honed as my German steel carving knives that cut through anything as if it were butter.  I would love to immerse myself into it now, years after her death and experience the feel of it again, like the warm flannel of her famous bed sheets worn smooth from thousands of washings.  She asked such probing questions She asked such probing questions... She always said she would write a book.  She never did. I don't want to be like that.

I write so I can read and think about things that would otherwise go by without scrutiny or considered judgment.

I write because my first thoughts are not always my best thoughts, but like well planted seeds watered and gently tended, they produce beauty or nourishment for body and soul with judicious pruning, well worth the wait.  Sometimes.  As with wines, some years are better than others.  Each year is worth harvesting and tasting, or at least storing for future selection.

I write because I can't stop myself.
I write because I'm searching.
I write because I want to pass along something of myself, however vain that may be, like hieroglyphics in rocks.

My teacher's heart is wired to transfer and shape knowledge.  My analytical brain drools at the possibilities of word combinations, scene set ups and apt metaphor.  It loves the written word on a page and delights in lingering at deliciously sensitive places to titillate and coax a reader to the edge of suspense, dallying slowly for the steady build to explosive collaboration.

The power of a thought well placed within a moment of time, with enough space to let it breathe, is intoxicating.

Be careful what you wish for

Ask and you receive
Like children padding down stairs
Rain sounds penetrate

Thirst

Thirst (Haiku)

Rain more please, drench us
It's been dry for so long now.
Our hearts, our souls thirst.

Live Better

Eat until you are 80% full.

Okinawans, people known for longevity, follow the tradition of Hara hachi bu. In Japanese, this means "stomach 80%." Stop eating each meal a few bites before you think you will feel full - you'll feel satisfied without overeating.

Not sure I can remember this, but it's a habit worth forming this year. A mid-year resolution...

Dismissed Too Soon

Dismissed Too Soon

I am so sorry they are ignoring you.
It is Monday, December 27th and
The world seems to be done with you too soon.

The new year starts on Saturday.
Some of us won’t make it to then.
There are four whole days left of you.

Yet Happy New Year they’ve said three times today.
Have they lost track of time so soon?
Perhaps they’re still drunk from the Christmas moon?

Merry Christmas I said today to Pa on the phone
Finally connecting after visits and travel.
Happy New Year! he replied too soon, too soon.

The docs told Dad he had six-to-nine months.
He lived 10 years and I loved every minute.
Four days can be an eternity… too soon.

I’m still with you, 2010 and I’ll stay ‘til you’re ready to go.
We’ve got four days together.
Give me everything you’ve got.

A holy moment

A good loaf of bread.
DeLallo EVO and Pampered Chef Rosemary & Lemon Oil Dipping Seasoning, lightly stirred.
A glass of Sterling Vintage Collection Merlot, 2007, in a perfectly shaped wine glass.
A dip of bread in oil. A swirl, a deep sniff, a long sip of Merlot.
A holy moment.